With DLS I am appealing to people who don't feel loved and happy. Those people are the ones wanting something more - looking for something else. A lot of what I say might sound very negative, even unloving, and that is the whole point, as I don't want to support the untruth, I want to go the opposite way of what is considered normal.
It is always our feelings that are ONLY what's important.
So if one feels good and loved, that is what one feels. If one wants to find the truth as to whether such feelings are supported only by ones mind, and perhaps not as one might want to think - by ones heart, then the sincere seeker truth will sense deeper underlying feelings wishing to be expressed. It is not always what it seems on the surface, and even though in the passion of the moment we might feel one thing, those feelings might only be relevant to the moment. Love can only come from truth.
No Truth; No Love.
It is always our feelings that are ONLY what's important.
So if one feels good and loved, that is what one feels. If one wants to find the truth as to whether such feelings are supported only by ones mind, and perhaps not as one might want to think - by ones heart, then the sincere seeker truth will sense deeper underlying feelings wishing to be expressed. It is not always what it seems on the surface, and even though in the passion of the moment we might feel one thing, those feelings might only be relevant to the moment. Love can only come from truth.
No Truth; No Love.
Love and happiness - it's what we all want.
Of course it's what we all want, but I have to conclude really we don't have a clue about it. We think we know what it is, but we don't, and how can we when we exist in a anti love and anti happiness state of being.
The best we have is that within our evilness we some feelings that are better than others. We then attribute these good feelings as levels of love and happiness, the bad ones, levels of unloved and hate, suffering, fear, despair and so on. We live in a zone of relatively all based on how it was for us during our forming years.
I might think love is love and yet Marion's 'love' is different to my love, as is her understanding of love, all because we grew up differently.
We do however feel love as love and happiness as happiness, feelings are feelings, but it's how they might be conditioned by our minds and its beliefs that I want to point out. The difficulty we have is that because we're not living true to our feelings, because we're not true, when you start growing in truth, you begin to wonder if the love you feel is really true love, or is it just a contrivance of your mind.
Technically, evil means no love, so as we're evil, we don't love. So all we feel and know to be love is not love, it's something else, something we pretend to be love. But when you feel good, when you feel loved and happy, those feelings are so strong it's hard to say they are not really true because I'm experiencing them in an evil condition of being. So possibly we can say they are good feelings of love and happiness relative to, or within, our evilness. And when we feel them when fully healed, perfect and true, then they would be really good!
So until we are living true and perfect, of a Celestial level of truth, we can't actually know what real and true love and happiness is. That awaits us. So for now, all we can do is keep going expressing all the feelings we feel as truly as we feel them, and long for the truth of them. And as we grow and change, so too do we change our relationship with our feelings, and one day when we're healed, then we'll know all about our feelings without having them interfered with by our controlling negative minds.
The best we have is that within our evilness we some feelings that are better than others. We then attribute these good feelings as levels of love and happiness, the bad ones, levels of unloved and hate, suffering, fear, despair and so on. We live in a zone of relatively all based on how it was for us during our forming years.
I might think love is love and yet Marion's 'love' is different to my love, as is her understanding of love, all because we grew up differently.
We do however feel love as love and happiness as happiness, feelings are feelings, but it's how they might be conditioned by our minds and its beliefs that I want to point out. The difficulty we have is that because we're not living true to our feelings, because we're not true, when you start growing in truth, you begin to wonder if the love you feel is really true love, or is it just a contrivance of your mind.
Technically, evil means no love, so as we're evil, we don't love. So all we feel and know to be love is not love, it's something else, something we pretend to be love. But when you feel good, when you feel loved and happy, those feelings are so strong it's hard to say they are not really true because I'm experiencing them in an evil condition of being. So possibly we can say they are good feelings of love and happiness relative to, or within, our evilness. And when we feel them when fully healed, perfect and true, then they would be really good!
So until we are living true and perfect, of a Celestial level of truth, we can't actually know what real and true love and happiness is. That awaits us. So for now, all we can do is keep going expressing all the feelings we feel as truly as we feel them, and long for the truth of them. And as we grow and change, so too do we change our relationship with our feelings, and one day when we're healed, then we'll know all about our feelings without having them interfered with by our controlling negative minds.
Why do some people feel loved, others not - how does it work?
All we do is within our evil and negative states, not knowing that we are that way. So within it, there is love and hate, good and bad feelings, all relative to that condition of mind and will. And when we feel love, we feel very good, and hate, very bad, very intensely, very deeply, yet still relative to and within the negative. We don’t know how we’d feel were we to feel love and hate outside the negative, relative to and within a positive state of mind and will. People who enjoy their lives loving all they do and all who are in it; people who are just happy in their evilness, don’t feel pressurised by it, they feel they are very capable of surviving and mastering living in it. It all works for them, but not so for those people who feel they are failures at it, who can’t live happily and lovingly in their self-denying state.
It’s hard to see it for what it is. How can such good feelings of love, for your partner, your children, your pets, nature - life, be all false love feelings when you feel so good and happy. Yet if we see they are all still occurring within a state of life that is wrong, and even anti true love and true happiness, then you can sort of make sense of it. But you wonder: if we are all evil, why don’t we all feel bad all the time, especially if it’s true that we are denying ourselves real love. But that’s just it, that’s the deception we live under, the great delusion, the fact that we can make, using our minds, ourselves feel very good and loved, happy as can be, whilst being evil. Evil is very appealing as you live under the misguided impression that you are god, fully in control, so fully able to make yourself as happy and loved as you want. And that’s what we’re all trying to do all the time. Yet because not everyone can do it successfully, so we have to also wonder, why not, and so having to come to terms with the truth that perhaps we’re not in control as we believe we are. So we rationalise that being happy and feeling loved is just the luck of the draw, but it’s not, it’s all merely a product of how one was parented. And if you were given more freedom and power within your evil life, then life works for you supporting your evilness, as you can use that power to make life be how you want. And if you weren’t given any freedom or power, then you’re always struggling, always wondering why you can’t do it when other people can. So we have to wake up to the truth that it doesn’t matter how we’re feeling, as we’re feeling it all within a truth denying condition of being. And that at best we can use those feelings to help us understand that condition. And in doing so, will heal ourselves of the condition, then being free to experience feelings uninfluenced by our wrongness.
It’s hard to see it for what it is. How can such good feelings of love, for your partner, your children, your pets, nature - life, be all false love feelings when you feel so good and happy. Yet if we see they are all still occurring within a state of life that is wrong, and even anti true love and true happiness, then you can sort of make sense of it. But you wonder: if we are all evil, why don’t we all feel bad all the time, especially if it’s true that we are denying ourselves real love. But that’s just it, that’s the deception we live under, the great delusion, the fact that we can make, using our minds, ourselves feel very good and loved, happy as can be, whilst being evil. Evil is very appealing as you live under the misguided impression that you are god, fully in control, so fully able to make yourself as happy and loved as you want. And that’s what we’re all trying to do all the time. Yet because not everyone can do it successfully, so we have to also wonder, why not, and so having to come to terms with the truth that perhaps we’re not in control as we believe we are. So we rationalise that being happy and feeling loved is just the luck of the draw, but it’s not, it’s all merely a product of how one was parented. And if you were given more freedom and power within your evil life, then life works for you supporting your evilness, as you can use that power to make life be how you want. And if you weren’t given any freedom or power, then you’re always struggling, always wondering why you can’t do it when other people can. So we have to wake up to the truth that it doesn’t matter how we’re feeling, as we’re feeling it all within a truth denying condition of being. And that at best we can use those feelings to help us understand that condition. And in doing so, will heal ourselves of the condition, then being free to experience feelings uninfluenced by our wrongness.
Soul-mate... and a friend
Undoubtedly we'd all love to find our soul-mate, unless of course you feel you've already found them. But do we actually have one, is that something we can count on. And in this the Padgett Messages give a resounding - thumps up!
Okay, so out there somewhere is my other half. Are they alive now on Earth, or have they been and gone and are awaiting me in spirit; are they still to come to Earth; are the living around the corner?
What brings two soul-mates together? And how do they find one another? And how do you know you are a soul-mate pair. In the Padgett Messages apparently certain spirits like Helen Padgett help unite soul-mates, but this all goes on in the Divine Love mansion worlds - what about in the mind spirit worlds and on Earth. And can you find your soul-mate on Earth or do you have to wait until you're in spirit? And are those people who feel they've found their soul-mate really in love with their soul-mate, or are the in love with the fantasy of being soul-mates? And it is instant recognition and bliss when you meet each other?
I see it like this. As we're currently living in a anti-love state, all we think and feel to be love is tainted by our evilness, so one could say it's not true or pure love. And I would imagine that to experience the full soul-mate love from the union of two who are one - two personality expressions of the one soul, we'd first have be in a true and perfect state, so we'd have had to have healed ourselves of our self-denying state. If we live being untrue to ourselves and so not fully self-loving, then there's no way we can be fully loving of anyone or anything else - our soul-mate, nature or God.
However, that's not to say we can't meet our soul-mate at any time. Yet, is it that we do only meet them when we are setting out to live true, to do our healing soul- or feeling-healing, because we'll need each other to be able fully help ourselves with all that's involved in our healing. Or, can we do our healing, or at least some of it, with the help of other people, other close intimate relationships all of which will be helping us get ready for that fateful meeting.
As we live desperately needing the love we didn't get fully from our parents, and as we're full to the brim with fantasies about how life should be for us, so it's very easy to meet someone you connect very well with and instantly jump to the conclusion that you're soul-mates. But as one finds out through ones healing, nearly all one believes life is or how it's meant to be is wrong, that including how you feel in your relationships.
However, having said that, I don't want to put you off doing your healing for fear that your relationship might end when you uncover truth realising you've been deluding yourself all along and Mr or Mrs Right is Wrong after all. I can't say, and neither will you be able to in advance, whether such a thing will happen, but if it does, and you are intent in being true, it will be the best thing for all involved. So all you can do, all any of us can do, is keep on expressing all our bad feelings whilst seeking the truth of them. And if that leads us to the break up of our current relationship, so be it, it wasn't true, but it might also lead to strengthening it, as you both start to express all your hidden stuff and bad feelings, having a truer relationship.
I have asked my spirit friends about it, however I feel it's best as I don't say too much leaving it up to you to discover for yourself. As for Marion and myself, we didn't come together in any great love for each other. We liked each other, agreed to live together, shared similar goals in wanting to become true no matter what the cost, and decided to help each other - be a friend for each other if nothing else, listening to each other express all our yuk. Marion was much better at doing it being not so plagued by as many love and sexual fantasies as I had. But we're getting there understanding that we're in a 'working relationship', that it's about helping each other do our healing. And that until we're fully healed, love is on the back-burner, because there are simply too many bad feelings coming up within us all the time to worry about love. We do long to be fully loved and to love, to be with someone we can experience that with - our soul-mate, but we also know anything can happen at any time, it being what we need next in our ascent of truth. And if it does even turn out we are soul-mates, we'll then we'll feel what we feel about that expressing those feelings and seeking the truth of them - hopefully they all being GOOD feelings.
What we all do need is a friend, someone who will accept us for being all the yuk we are, and not someone who keeps on telling us to stop feeling bad. Someone who encourages us to bring it all out, to keep going, who is there with us in each step of the way. And it all sounds all very nice having such an attentive friend, however when you're both feeling like shit and very angry and telling at each other to fuck off, then you know you're getting down into the real nitty-gritty of it and you don't care what happens wanting to rip everything apart. But if you're both determined to keep bringing up all your shit, and you stay with each other, you come amicably back together again once the truth starts coming to light.
Having any relationship whilst you're doing your healing is no longer having a normal relationship, especially if you're both doing it together. Nothing will be the same. So I will warn you now, if you do decide to do you healing, if you feel you've no option left or it seems like a good idea, you whole life is going to change as you do, so possibly all your relationships. It won't necessarily change overnight, however it also might, but from my experiences it's been a steady change allowing me to adjust and choose for myself in what direction I want to go. And even during the times when I have felt like I'm being made to do something I don't want to do, I'm not actually being made to do it, so more to speak about.
And as for how long your relationship will last, of course I can't say, and you will meet, if you've not done so already ready, whomever it is you will need to help you uncover the truth of yourself through your feeling acceptance, if that is really what you want. You will meet the friend you need to help you. And as much as therapists can be very helpful, helping you break through barriers and blocks, still it's in an intimate close relationship that you'll do all the hard work. It was in intimate close family relationships that got you into the shit, so it's in very personal relationships of striving to live true to yourself, that you'll get yourself out.
And can you do it with same sex friends, or friends without any sexual component, I don't see why not. You'll do it with whomever you need to help you. But in the end, soul-mates consist of one half being masculine the other half feminine.
And how long will it take to do your healing? That's for you find out. Marion and I have been doing it for 16 years now and we're still feeling bad and expressing our hidden feelings. There is a lot to you that you have no idea about, and it's all inside you, waiting to come out!
And can you stop and start your healing, or do you have to make a commitment to it and keep going? I don't know, but I reckon you can do whatever it is you feel you want to do. It's up to us whether or not we want to express our feelings with the aim of seeking the truth of them.
Okay, so out there somewhere is my other half. Are they alive now on Earth, or have they been and gone and are awaiting me in spirit; are they still to come to Earth; are the living around the corner?
What brings two soul-mates together? And how do they find one another? And how do you know you are a soul-mate pair. In the Padgett Messages apparently certain spirits like Helen Padgett help unite soul-mates, but this all goes on in the Divine Love mansion worlds - what about in the mind spirit worlds and on Earth. And can you find your soul-mate on Earth or do you have to wait until you're in spirit? And are those people who feel they've found their soul-mate really in love with their soul-mate, or are the in love with the fantasy of being soul-mates? And it is instant recognition and bliss when you meet each other?
I see it like this. As we're currently living in a anti-love state, all we think and feel to be love is tainted by our evilness, so one could say it's not true or pure love. And I would imagine that to experience the full soul-mate love from the union of two who are one - two personality expressions of the one soul, we'd first have be in a true and perfect state, so we'd have had to have healed ourselves of our self-denying state. If we live being untrue to ourselves and so not fully self-loving, then there's no way we can be fully loving of anyone or anything else - our soul-mate, nature or God.
However, that's not to say we can't meet our soul-mate at any time. Yet, is it that we do only meet them when we are setting out to live true, to do our healing soul- or feeling-healing, because we'll need each other to be able fully help ourselves with all that's involved in our healing. Or, can we do our healing, or at least some of it, with the help of other people, other close intimate relationships all of which will be helping us get ready for that fateful meeting.
As we live desperately needing the love we didn't get fully from our parents, and as we're full to the brim with fantasies about how life should be for us, so it's very easy to meet someone you connect very well with and instantly jump to the conclusion that you're soul-mates. But as one finds out through ones healing, nearly all one believes life is or how it's meant to be is wrong, that including how you feel in your relationships.
However, having said that, I don't want to put you off doing your healing for fear that your relationship might end when you uncover truth realising you've been deluding yourself all along and Mr or Mrs Right is Wrong after all. I can't say, and neither will you be able to in advance, whether such a thing will happen, but if it does, and you are intent in being true, it will be the best thing for all involved. So all you can do, all any of us can do, is keep on expressing all our bad feelings whilst seeking the truth of them. And if that leads us to the break up of our current relationship, so be it, it wasn't true, but it might also lead to strengthening it, as you both start to express all your hidden stuff and bad feelings, having a truer relationship.
I have asked my spirit friends about it, however I feel it's best as I don't say too much leaving it up to you to discover for yourself. As for Marion and myself, we didn't come together in any great love for each other. We liked each other, agreed to live together, shared similar goals in wanting to become true no matter what the cost, and decided to help each other - be a friend for each other if nothing else, listening to each other express all our yuk. Marion was much better at doing it being not so plagued by as many love and sexual fantasies as I had. But we're getting there understanding that we're in a 'working relationship', that it's about helping each other do our healing. And that until we're fully healed, love is on the back-burner, because there are simply too many bad feelings coming up within us all the time to worry about love. We do long to be fully loved and to love, to be with someone we can experience that with - our soul-mate, but we also know anything can happen at any time, it being what we need next in our ascent of truth. And if it does even turn out we are soul-mates, we'll then we'll feel what we feel about that expressing those feelings and seeking the truth of them - hopefully they all being GOOD feelings.
What we all do need is a friend, someone who will accept us for being all the yuk we are, and not someone who keeps on telling us to stop feeling bad. Someone who encourages us to bring it all out, to keep going, who is there with us in each step of the way. And it all sounds all very nice having such an attentive friend, however when you're both feeling like shit and very angry and telling at each other to fuck off, then you know you're getting down into the real nitty-gritty of it and you don't care what happens wanting to rip everything apart. But if you're both determined to keep bringing up all your shit, and you stay with each other, you come amicably back together again once the truth starts coming to light.
Having any relationship whilst you're doing your healing is no longer having a normal relationship, especially if you're both doing it together. Nothing will be the same. So I will warn you now, if you do decide to do you healing, if you feel you've no option left or it seems like a good idea, you whole life is going to change as you do, so possibly all your relationships. It won't necessarily change overnight, however it also might, but from my experiences it's been a steady change allowing me to adjust and choose for myself in what direction I want to go. And even during the times when I have felt like I'm being made to do something I don't want to do, I'm not actually being made to do it, so more to speak about.
And as for how long your relationship will last, of course I can't say, and you will meet, if you've not done so already ready, whomever it is you will need to help you uncover the truth of yourself through your feeling acceptance, if that is really what you want. You will meet the friend you need to help you. And as much as therapists can be very helpful, helping you break through barriers and blocks, still it's in an intimate close relationship that you'll do all the hard work. It was in intimate close family relationships that got you into the shit, so it's in very personal relationships of striving to live true to yourself, that you'll get yourself out.
And can you do it with same sex friends, or friends without any sexual component, I don't see why not. You'll do it with whomever you need to help you. But in the end, soul-mates consist of one half being masculine the other half feminine.
And how long will it take to do your healing? That's for you find out. Marion and I have been doing it for 16 years now and we're still feeling bad and expressing our hidden feelings. There is a lot to you that you have no idea about, and it's all inside you, waiting to come out!
And can you stop and start your healing, or do you have to make a commitment to it and keep going? I don't know, but I reckon you can do whatever it is you feel you want to do. It's up to us whether or not we want to express our feelings with the aim of seeking the truth of them.
I've saved the hardest stuff for last
To conclude this introductory website to Divine Love Spirituality, I've left the hardest for last.
This may be difficult for you to grasp, and I will include something I have never done before in any of my writing - a quote from the Bible, which I will use to try and explain the hard part.
Luke 14:24-27 King James Version (KJV)
24 For I say unto you, That none of those men which were bidden shall taste of my supper.
25 And there went great multitudes with him: and he turned, and said unto them,
26 If any man come to me, and hate not his father, and mother, and wife, and children, and brethren, and sisters, yea, and his own life also, he cannot be my disciple.
27 And whosoever doth not bear his cross, and come after me, cannot be my disciple.
Irrespective of whether Jesus actually did say it or not (I can't believe anything in the Bible to be truly as it was said, not unless Jesus were to now say so himself), for what is is, it's still I think very relevant and possibly one of the most important parts of the Bible. The interpretations of what it means by scholars of the Bible, I disagee with. Mostly everything I read immediately screams at you, oh no, it's not as it seems, Jesus is not actually saying one has to hate their father or mother, wife and children and so on, oh dear me, oh God no, Jesus, our great Jesus of love would never say anything like that, what he really means is... And quite frankly, I'm amazed to find it in the Bible, that it hasn't been take out long ago. However for me, it is what it literally says, and I agree with it entirely.
So this is my interpretation, and I will go along with the Bible, as in Jesus did say it.
Being in our evil states, we're unloving - right. I guess if you've come this far reading all I've said, you must at least understand this point, even if you don't accept it. So, being unloving we are not loving, rather obvious. But now apply that to your life. You are not a truly loving person irrespective of what you might think, feel and believe about yourself. You can't be because you've been conceived into evil, grew up in evil, have only ever known evil, even though you've been made to believe you're not evil and neither is life as we know it.
And so the next step. As you were conceived into evil, so your parent and grandparents and their parents, and so back to the beginning of the Rebellion and Default, were evil. A very long line of evilness. So you stood no chance, unbeknown to you, you carry on the lines of evilness.
So growing up, even though you were surrounded by people you might have loved and who loved you, still they didn't really love you as you really needed to be loved, they couldn't, as they were imperfect and evil. And so you've taken and absorbed all you can from them, so you too are not as truly loving as you might like to be. And if you've had children, you might love them with all your heart, more than anything in the world, yet as you're not truly loving, so you've not fully and perfectly loved your children. And as much as your children might love you, still deep inside them, hidden away if they are not in touch with it, there will be feelings of feeling unloved by you. We all have feelings of not being as loved as we'd have liked to have been by our parents, even those people lucky enough to feel 'completely' loved by their parents.
And you might say, well no one is perfect, but at least I love and was loved a lot, and to the best of my parents ability, but that's not the point if you want to live true and heal yourself. If you're happy with your evil self and feeling, anti love and anti truth state, well fine, but you certainly won't be interested in striving to do your Soul-Healing, because all that's going to show you is the TRUTH. And that truth will be, as it can't be anything else - that you DON'T FEEL LOVED. No one can feel truly loved in evil or by evil, that's not what evil is. Evil pretends and can even put on a good show of loving, but it's not, it's anti love, it's no-love. It's false love.
And so back to the Bible quote.
As you do your healing, which Jesus is referring to by saying if you want to be his disciple, meaning, if you want to live as he does, be as true and perfect as he is; if you want to follow him, then you are going to have to face the hard truth of your evilness. And this means you are going to have to come to terms with the truth that you are not loving, and so you actually hate yourself, the opposite to love. And so it's the same in all your relationships, you will at some point as you go deep into all your yuk, have to come to terms with the truth that your parents didn't love, your brother and sister don't love you, your spouse or partner doesn't really love, and you don't really and truly love them. And all because you can't, because you're evil. None of us can. Only the creatures are truly loving, they love us unconditionally, but we don't love them in the same way. Our love is tainted by our evilness, it could even be said to be false love, and it's the same for all our relationships.
So in the end we all have to live true to the evil state of no-love we're in. We have to accept that we're not loving beings, that currently we're hating beings. Our souls are innately loving, good and true, but we've been forced to deny this goodness in us. And this is the missing part what none of us get yet. And when we do, when we start to 'come out' and come clean and admit to ourselves how unloving we really are, then we'll start to truly set ourselves free; then we'll even start to be truly loving and truly happy. But it takes long hard years of uncovering the truth though the doing of our healing. And when you start feeling what a horrible unloving person you are, when you have to start admitting to it, oh boy it's horrible.
So to conclude: We are unloving because we're evil, it's as simple as that. Yet to live that truth means we have to go against all that we are, all we've been conditioned to be, all we've grown up and formed in. And to stop denying all those bad feelings that are trying to show us this truth To stop and break down the dam wall allowing our inner-feeling waters to run free. And that's really helping yourself, that's really embracing your spirituality.
This may be difficult for you to grasp, and I will include something I have never done before in any of my writing - a quote from the Bible, which I will use to try and explain the hard part.
Luke 14:24-27 King James Version (KJV)
24 For I say unto you, That none of those men which were bidden shall taste of my supper.
25 And there went great multitudes with him: and he turned, and said unto them,
26 If any man come to me, and hate not his father, and mother, and wife, and children, and brethren, and sisters, yea, and his own life also, he cannot be my disciple.
27 And whosoever doth not bear his cross, and come after me, cannot be my disciple.
Irrespective of whether Jesus actually did say it or not (I can't believe anything in the Bible to be truly as it was said, not unless Jesus were to now say so himself), for what is is, it's still I think very relevant and possibly one of the most important parts of the Bible. The interpretations of what it means by scholars of the Bible, I disagee with. Mostly everything I read immediately screams at you, oh no, it's not as it seems, Jesus is not actually saying one has to hate their father or mother, wife and children and so on, oh dear me, oh God no, Jesus, our great Jesus of love would never say anything like that, what he really means is... And quite frankly, I'm amazed to find it in the Bible, that it hasn't been take out long ago. However for me, it is what it literally says, and I agree with it entirely.
So this is my interpretation, and I will go along with the Bible, as in Jesus did say it.
Being in our evil states, we're unloving - right. I guess if you've come this far reading all I've said, you must at least understand this point, even if you don't accept it. So, being unloving we are not loving, rather obvious. But now apply that to your life. You are not a truly loving person irrespective of what you might think, feel and believe about yourself. You can't be because you've been conceived into evil, grew up in evil, have only ever known evil, even though you've been made to believe you're not evil and neither is life as we know it.
And so the next step. As you were conceived into evil, so your parent and grandparents and their parents, and so back to the beginning of the Rebellion and Default, were evil. A very long line of evilness. So you stood no chance, unbeknown to you, you carry on the lines of evilness.
So growing up, even though you were surrounded by people you might have loved and who loved you, still they didn't really love you as you really needed to be loved, they couldn't, as they were imperfect and evil. And so you've taken and absorbed all you can from them, so you too are not as truly loving as you might like to be. And if you've had children, you might love them with all your heart, more than anything in the world, yet as you're not truly loving, so you've not fully and perfectly loved your children. And as much as your children might love you, still deep inside them, hidden away if they are not in touch with it, there will be feelings of feeling unloved by you. We all have feelings of not being as loved as we'd have liked to have been by our parents, even those people lucky enough to feel 'completely' loved by their parents.
And you might say, well no one is perfect, but at least I love and was loved a lot, and to the best of my parents ability, but that's not the point if you want to live true and heal yourself. If you're happy with your evil self and feeling, anti love and anti truth state, well fine, but you certainly won't be interested in striving to do your Soul-Healing, because all that's going to show you is the TRUTH. And that truth will be, as it can't be anything else - that you DON'T FEEL LOVED. No one can feel truly loved in evil or by evil, that's not what evil is. Evil pretends and can even put on a good show of loving, but it's not, it's anti love, it's no-love. It's false love.
And so back to the Bible quote.
As you do your healing, which Jesus is referring to by saying if you want to be his disciple, meaning, if you want to live as he does, be as true and perfect as he is; if you want to follow him, then you are going to have to face the hard truth of your evilness. And this means you are going to have to come to terms with the truth that you are not loving, and so you actually hate yourself, the opposite to love. And so it's the same in all your relationships, you will at some point as you go deep into all your yuk, have to come to terms with the truth that your parents didn't love, your brother and sister don't love you, your spouse or partner doesn't really love, and you don't really and truly love them. And all because you can't, because you're evil. None of us can. Only the creatures are truly loving, they love us unconditionally, but we don't love them in the same way. Our love is tainted by our evilness, it could even be said to be false love, and it's the same for all our relationships.
So in the end we all have to live true to the evil state of no-love we're in. We have to accept that we're not loving beings, that currently we're hating beings. Our souls are innately loving, good and true, but we've been forced to deny this goodness in us. And this is the missing part what none of us get yet. And when we do, when we start to 'come out' and come clean and admit to ourselves how unloving we really are, then we'll start to truly set ourselves free; then we'll even start to be truly loving and truly happy. But it takes long hard years of uncovering the truth though the doing of our healing. And when you start feeling what a horrible unloving person you are, when you have to start admitting to it, oh boy it's horrible.
So to conclude: We are unloving because we're evil, it's as simple as that. Yet to live that truth means we have to go against all that we are, all we've been conditioned to be, all we've grown up and formed in. And to stop denying all those bad feelings that are trying to show us this truth To stop and break down the dam wall allowing our inner-feeling waters to run free. And that's really helping yourself, that's really embracing your spirituality.
The Bottom line with our healing
To uncover the whole truth of our negative state we are taken systematically by our soul down into the depths of our early life, this all being done through our feelings. We use the feelings we feel now in our adult lives, expressing them the best we can, with the intent of uncovering the truth of them. And as we do this, so we are naturally led back deeper and deeper into ourselves, all the way until we connect with the same feelings in our early life. And we see that how we feel now is how we felt back then. It's an incredible process, however very harrowing at times, because to go back into those bad times during our forming years, the times when we felt unloved and rejected by our parents, is not something that's fun. And it's what our self-denial consists of - blocking out all those unwanted feelings from our past. We don't want to feel unloved by our parents, let alone have to accept that it might be true. That is confronting our greatest inner demon, the most scariest thing of all.
But as our early life becomes 'real' again to us, we find that most of our anger, feelings of being rejected, unloved and uncared about, come from how our parents treated us. And where else could such bad feelings come from anyway? We might have other influential adults in our past who also caused us to feel bad and added to our becoming untrue to ourselves and evil, however still it comes down to the primary people - our parents. And so time and time again one finds oneself uncovering yet more hatred and anger of and at them. And any love that one might find one has with them, starts to come under constant barrage from all the unloving bad feelings surfacing.
For most of us, the last thing we want to feel is unloved by our parents. And the most last thing we want, is to have to then accept that we do feel unloved by them. And then the most, most, last thing we feel is we have to set about accepting such bad feelings, re-feeling, re-experiencing how they didn't make us feel loved, all so we can come to fully understand the truth of our relationship with them.
So many of us hide in our delusion of the great love we felt and feel for our parents. Some people possibly felt such love, and if it was true, so it will remain withstanding the onslaught of a never ending stream of bad feelings surfacing. But for most of us, sadly a lot of the good loving feelings will be burnt in the inner conflagration because they have been fabricated on thin paper, all in the desperate hope those dreaded bad feelings are not true, that you were loved.
I believed I loved and was loved by my parents and defended such belief to the end. My security and wellbeing in life was based on that. However as I've been stripped of such erroneous and false beliefs, I've had to come face to face with the ugly truth that they didn't love me and I don't feel loved by them. And that I'm very, very angry about that. That I'm terribly sad and miserable, and my whole 'loving' relationship with them was a sham.
From our conception onwards we grow up in our parents world. And we know no other world. And so naturally we believe that it is right, how they are making us be. But it's not, because they are not true. They are false, they are feeling denying and so self-denying, so their world is corrupted and nothing more than a fantasy based on their beliefs and how their parents made them behave in their world. And to break all this falseness down, to have your whole world turned upside down, to start to realise that EVERYTHING in your life is wrong, is not founded on truth and loving perfection, has, as a great understatement, a profound affect on you. To wake up to how fucked you really are, and to how being evil makes you actually feel; and to how unloved you feel and how devastated you are by not being loved, is all but soul-destroying. Only the problem is, your soul has already been destroyed, that's what your parents unwittingly have done to you. And in fact by your coming fully to terms with it, by your going into all your bad feelings, by fully allowing yourself to finally feel such devastation within you and how unloved you really do feel; by doing all you can to go the other way, to accept all your bad feeling instead of denying them, is healing your damaged soul. It will be making you better. It won't be like going to the therapist or doctor putting a band-aid over your wound or trauma, it will going right down to the root of it all and coming to terms with it there.
Our healing is something we have to do to free ourselves of our evilness. Humanity has had more than enough time now to see that how it goes about life, all it considers as being healing, does not actually deal with the real cause of our troubles.
We have to stop. Decide we're not going on as we've been led to believe is the right way and the right thing for us to do. We have to cease looking to the outside world for help. We have go in. But not go in as so many Eastern and New Age philosophies talk about, but into all our bad feelings by allowing them to exist and have their say. It is only the truth that is our salvation, but not a mere belief in truth as in 'I believe in'... the Bible or in God or in Jesus or in Spirit or in Allah or in science or in drugs or in sex or in happy families, it is something we have to live with and through our feelings, so we need ALL our feelings to do so.
If you choose to do your healing it will be a fraught descent into your Valley of Darkness for you. However there is light at the end of the tunnel, although that tunnel may be long and seeming like it's never ending. And slowly as you uncover the truth of your unloved state, you will feel better, as you will feel more love for yourself - true love. And when it's all done, you will feel fully and truly and perfectly loved and happy. As if you've been born again, or born anew, and this time around, as if you did have truly loving parents. You will have become the true loving parents for yourself, filling in all your love gaps and holes. And then you will be free to truly love and be loved.
But as our early life becomes 'real' again to us, we find that most of our anger, feelings of being rejected, unloved and uncared about, come from how our parents treated us. And where else could such bad feelings come from anyway? We might have other influential adults in our past who also caused us to feel bad and added to our becoming untrue to ourselves and evil, however still it comes down to the primary people - our parents. And so time and time again one finds oneself uncovering yet more hatred and anger of and at them. And any love that one might find one has with them, starts to come under constant barrage from all the unloving bad feelings surfacing.
For most of us, the last thing we want to feel is unloved by our parents. And the most last thing we want, is to have to then accept that we do feel unloved by them. And then the most, most, last thing we feel is we have to set about accepting such bad feelings, re-feeling, re-experiencing how they didn't make us feel loved, all so we can come to fully understand the truth of our relationship with them.
So many of us hide in our delusion of the great love we felt and feel for our parents. Some people possibly felt such love, and if it was true, so it will remain withstanding the onslaught of a never ending stream of bad feelings surfacing. But for most of us, sadly a lot of the good loving feelings will be burnt in the inner conflagration because they have been fabricated on thin paper, all in the desperate hope those dreaded bad feelings are not true, that you were loved.
I believed I loved and was loved by my parents and defended such belief to the end. My security and wellbeing in life was based on that. However as I've been stripped of such erroneous and false beliefs, I've had to come face to face with the ugly truth that they didn't love me and I don't feel loved by them. And that I'm very, very angry about that. That I'm terribly sad and miserable, and my whole 'loving' relationship with them was a sham.
From our conception onwards we grow up in our parents world. And we know no other world. And so naturally we believe that it is right, how they are making us be. But it's not, because they are not true. They are false, they are feeling denying and so self-denying, so their world is corrupted and nothing more than a fantasy based on their beliefs and how their parents made them behave in their world. And to break all this falseness down, to have your whole world turned upside down, to start to realise that EVERYTHING in your life is wrong, is not founded on truth and loving perfection, has, as a great understatement, a profound affect on you. To wake up to how fucked you really are, and to how being evil makes you actually feel; and to how unloved you feel and how devastated you are by not being loved, is all but soul-destroying. Only the problem is, your soul has already been destroyed, that's what your parents unwittingly have done to you. And in fact by your coming fully to terms with it, by your going into all your bad feelings, by fully allowing yourself to finally feel such devastation within you and how unloved you really do feel; by doing all you can to go the other way, to accept all your bad feeling instead of denying them, is healing your damaged soul. It will be making you better. It won't be like going to the therapist or doctor putting a band-aid over your wound or trauma, it will going right down to the root of it all and coming to terms with it there.
Our healing is something we have to do to free ourselves of our evilness. Humanity has had more than enough time now to see that how it goes about life, all it considers as being healing, does not actually deal with the real cause of our troubles.
We have to stop. Decide we're not going on as we've been led to believe is the right way and the right thing for us to do. We have to cease looking to the outside world for help. We have go in. But not go in as so many Eastern and New Age philosophies talk about, but into all our bad feelings by allowing them to exist and have their say. It is only the truth that is our salvation, but not a mere belief in truth as in 'I believe in'... the Bible or in God or in Jesus or in Spirit or in Allah or in science or in drugs or in sex or in happy families, it is something we have to live with and through our feelings, so we need ALL our feelings to do so.
If you choose to do your healing it will be a fraught descent into your Valley of Darkness for you. However there is light at the end of the tunnel, although that tunnel may be long and seeming like it's never ending. And slowly as you uncover the truth of your unloved state, you will feel better, as you will feel more love for yourself - true love. And when it's all done, you will feel fully and truly and perfectly loved and happy. As if you've been born again, or born anew, and this time around, as if you did have truly loving parents. You will have become the true loving parents for yourself, filling in all your love gaps and holes. And then you will be free to truly love and be loved.
Divine Love Spirituality
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I love all the pictures, thank you everyone who made them freely available. What fantastic photos!
I love all the pictures, thank you everyone who made them freely available. What fantastic photos!